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To be educated by what is not of your own kind...

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Paradise = Utopia
From religion to secular forms of nihilism.

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Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:39 am

Broke into the citadel of ghosts
shadows flickering, shy hosts
passing through me,
over me
in me

Leaving nothing behind to comfort-me
many trinkets littering
its many corners shimmering
glittering
where one dis-covers
secret fluttering treasures

not to be owned
but admired, appreciated,
from afar, like a star
hands reaching
beseeching what cannot come near

Not meant for me
As I soon came to see
I was not of this world
not meant to be
forever fleeting wave upon wave hitting
from my inner sea

pushing away, towards the shore
of bones and stones
undercurrents pulling
them in, deeper
drowning them in my tumultuous
vapidity

Rather than they passing
through me
it was I,
like mist touching them
with warm liquid tears
of tragedy, comedy
engulfing, immersing
cooling warming
evaporating by morning

light
What delight
to touch without being held
to perceive
without being be-held
to feel without being felt

mourning the departing
dark
abyss where all draws near,
as it drifts apart
a storm coming

I dive, again...
seeking bottom
fingers seeking in the sand,
for what was lost
by surface swimmers
to keep,
in the deep
my own
only because it fell off

not to hold but to admire
in the mire
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Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:40 am


When silence falls
once more
and you wish to hear
of me

listen to a song
of melancholy
and forever there
I'll be

in between the notes
my silence
disturbed, by your
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Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:40 am


I broke the surface,
sucking in atmosphere
Gravity tugging at my all
Light and translucent,
floating patterns,
light bathing my spirit
I reached up
when a bird soared above me
then diving down
skimming the surface,
holding onto a fish
from the below
dark abyss,
black and cold
When I relax it pushes me,
buoyancy on the surface, I rest
preparing for the test
when I tense,
it pulls me down into its foreboding
nostalgic mourning
I recall, hoping to be heard
salt stinging my eyes
shadows shifting in the depths
I strain to see light, to be light
holding on by letting go
thoughts fading
into a bottomless expanse
thrilling and threatening
I look up once more

Body pushing in it
Mind slightly above
the shifting divide
vague memories,
swimming in the midst,
a fine mist
amniotic intimacy
Sucking in water,
Pushing out air



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Once a year I clean
from head to foot
cock to spleen
Garbage out the door
making room for more

Once a month I burn
yearning in the lantern
I learn to concern
Filth out the cistern
filling the cauldron

Throwing up,
casting down
What use have I for
your plastic crown
dirty clown?

Painted face
missing grace
lettering rearranged
warrior tattoos deranged
how strange

Once a week I destroy
foundation to spire
I overturn the ploy
with relentless joy
I tend to con-spire

Once a day I hurt
friends and foes
I deal out blows
expecting a return
I restlessly turn

Bed sheets
pillow cases
colourful make-up
rubbed-out
leaving nasty traces

I follow
Into the hollow
Echoes off cave walls
university halls
I listen to the calls

Within me in-security
bubbling forth and out
overflowing drowning
confident rising
a ship of my esteem

Running on steam
through the gates of Hercules
across the river Lethe
to be with thee
my one and only monstrosity


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Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:42 am

I, on the other hand
who needs no external stimuli,
no outside numbing
to walk through a wood
and feel the wonder

Am not as obsessed to prove
the wonder of my buzz
happy enough to hear it
in the rustling leaves
and bubbling streams

I, on the other hand,
who needs no other to validate
to witness and consolidate
feeling a caress, smelling her sweat
through her flowery dress

Am not as addicted to profess
the glory of her embrace
only content to feel her
and with my hungry mouth
conceal her taste


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I love the twilight, and the fleeting time before the dawn, hovering, there, nowhere, like a moment that never comes and never goes; like a passing touch, playing upon your skin a song, that never ends, because it has never begun; like death waiting, breathtaking, in erotic anticipation, to take you on.
I hold my self.
Suspended, still, listening for a climactic chime, that never comes, and by never coming, never ends.

If I could, I would, live in the northern lands where the sun never rises, and never declines.
Simply waiting there, on the horizon, blood red and tumescent with excited melancholy, like slightly parted lips, breathing in, and out, ready for the coming kiss that never comes, and by never coming never leaves.
Not strange for a Mediterranean, by birth, to have such tastes for the meditating, mid states, separating the mundane from the sublime.

I've always lived here, even beneath the brightest suns, hoping clouds will come to save me, and take me back to my comfortable dusk, where shadows bring out the subtlety of shapes, and their secreted delights.
My home has always been in the in-between, the fracturing lines of space and time, where daylight comes to meet the night, and where in concealing all is revealing, the darkness in the light.


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I am the sigil, and the mark is upon me
I am alone, one in all, all in one
I am for no-one, and no-one is for me
I am cast in stone, forged in steel, covering weal

I am the hungry reaper, and the need is me
I am foregone, gone for, gone in four
I be-long to no-one, and no one belongs to me
I am made of glass, reflective fragile, translucent free

I am miasma, and anathema is me
I am the smell, the scent, the stagnate sea
I flow to no-thing, and no-thing comes to me
I am liquid fire, lava flow, demanding small fee

I am that which was, is, and forever will be
I watch the clock, castrate the cock, I mock
I say and unsay, and then continue to repeat
I am nowhere, at no time, shadow scree

I am named, no-name, and the moniker is me
I am sad, glad, awaiting to be had
I speak the unspoken, revolt the revolting
I am hidden in revelation, openly concealed, visibly unseen


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Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:44 am

What has befallen to make me so sullen, I cannot avert from mine eye.
To be so parched and uncaring 'bout the taunts of the craven, finding their admiration just as dry.
I sought, for a moment, relief in the rare and revealing, but found it to be just as well.
As any amusement, and terror inducement, I settled upon every life that I fell.
Farewell, childhood dreams, I finally found a way out.
No longer bemused, or so easily seduced, I have found a new game for my toys, my easy joys; new pleasures in my old suffering annoys.


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Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:44 am

I gestured to the majestic light,
A sign of victory and spite
Forthcoming, I was
Gentle as an evening breeze, after a long day of searing heat
Casually I danced, and casually I sang, and sat by my own side
Alone but not, yet, lonely,
Settling, into my thoughts, like a bird upon its nest full of coming births
If I weren't so heavy with scars,
Well, I thought,
I could dance upon the stars
From where I fell and cracked but did not break,
Perhaps, a beautiful mistake,
And ever since, then, I limp,
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Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:46 am

I remember a stray cat I once befriended in Greece.
I fed her, because she looked so thin.

To my surprise, she came scratching at my bedroom door, daily, eventually ripping the screen.

She became so trusting that I could pick her up by the head, and she would go limp, like a kitten when the mother carries them.

When I left for the army, I was gone for a year, before my first long leave.
I returned, not finding her.
I thought she had died.
That afternoon I took my father's vespa down to the town - he was in Canada at the time.
I returned, later, and saw the cat running to the house. She had recognized the sound of the Vespa, which is distinct.
Nobody had one in the neighbourhood.
She was emaciated, but as affectionate as before.
I realized she had given birth to kittens, and had hid them somewhere in the cactus bushes.
I fed her well, and before I left I placed food at the door.
Never saw that cat again.
But I still recall her trusting purity, her affections.


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Nothing like the first sip of hot coffee, early on a fall morning.

Small pleasures, not to be made more than what they are - twinkles of a distant star.
Let the dark grow thicker, for me to see it dance - light skirting earthly gases from afar.
A messenger delivering a master's power.
How I long to acquire
A ship, with giant sails, and a hard rudder.
Perhaps to Troy
To do battle for another king's love
Perhaps elsewhere
Away from Ithaca shores

Distance makes the heart grow fonder
Closeness makes it grow cold
Caverns to be crossed
only by the bold

Those who can tolerate an ocean
of isolation
resisting the pull of friendly shores
or the warm water of the abyss
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Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:47 am

Never had problems sleeping, unless something was troubling me.
I've heard other complaining of sleep issues, insomnia, falling asleep after hours of tossing, and I can only empathize remembering my own, few times, of troubled sleeplessness.

Never underestimate the value of a good night's rest, or a cat nap at noon.
At my age, I don't.

There was one memorable night's sleep, when I was but a boy.
My parents had left me behind, in Greece, at my aunts house, and had departed for Canada.
I joined them 6 months later.
I was 8.

My aunt's house was in a mountain village, called Geraki (Hawk).

One night it was so hot she asked if I wanted to sleep on the roof.
Her kids, my cousins, much younger on the veranda.
I said, yes.
She laid down some blankets, sheets and a pillow.
I remember the night was so clear, up there, that the Milky Way was the brightest I had ever seen
The roof so high that there was nothing in my peripheral vision. No trees, no buildings, no town lights.
Nothing but stars surrounding me.
It felt like I was floating in space.
Roof cement fell away, as Hypnos came slowly to claim me floating in the heavens.


Sweetest night I ever experienced.


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Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:49 am

In all my wanderings, past and present, not once did I hear a bird sing and think it was singing for me.
Not once did I think I had solved a riddle, or that I was someone's one and only.
Not once have I considered myself indispensable, a leader, a guru, a teacher.

I simply show, and ask
"Do you not see?"

I guess I've never been so vain, though I am egotistical as can be.
The opposite, in fact.
Whenever I'm flattered I feel embarrassment, speculating on the motives.
When I am shown appreciation, I blush.
Imitation is the highest form of flattery - actions speaking louder than words.
Mind can lie, but not the body.
Body judges, on the sands of time it draws its appreciations - salivating, moistening, hardening, dilating, contracting, with a mind of its own - a reptilian automatism, the cortex must justify.


Empathy.
Can't watch a shameful act performed shamelessly without cringing, feeling ashamed for the one who feels it not - embarrassed on his behalf.


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