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    To be educated by what is not of your own kind...

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    Paradise = Utopia
    From religion to secular forms of nihilism.

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    Three levels of communication
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    Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:39 am

    Broke into the citadel of ghosts
    shadows flickering, shy hosts
    passing through me,
    over me
    in me

    Leaving nothing behind to comfort-me
    many trinkets littering
    its many corners shimmering
    glittering
    where one dis-covers
    secret fluttering treasures

    not to be owned
    but admired, appreciated,
    from afar, like a star
    hands reaching
    beseeching what cannot come near

    Not meant for me
    As I soon came to see
    I was not of this world
    not meant to be
    forever fleeting wave upon wave hitting
    from my inner sea

    pushing away, towards the shore
    of bones and stones
    undercurrents pulling
    them in, deeper
    drowning them in my tumultuous
    vapidity

    Rather than they passing
    through me
    it was I,
    like mist touching them
    with warm liquid tears
    of tragedy, comedy
    engulfing, immersing
    cooling warming
    evaporating by morning

    light
    What delight
    to touch without being held
    to perceive
    without being be-held
    to feel without being felt

    mourning the departing
    dark
    abyss where all draws near,
    as it drifts apart
    a storm coming

    I dive, again...
    seeking bottom
    fingers seeking in the sand,
    for what was lost
    by surface swimmers
    to keep,
    in the deep
    my own
    only because it fell off

    not to hold but to admire
    in the mire
    refusing desire



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    When silence falls
    once more
    and you wish to hear
    of me

    listen to a song
    of melancholy
    and forever there
    I'll be

    in between the notes
    my silence
    disturbed, by your
    beauty




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    I broke the surface,
    sucking in atmosphere
    Gravity tugging at my all
    Light and translucent,
    floating patterns,
    light bathing my spirit
    I reached up
    when a bird soared above me
    then diving down
    skimming the surface,
    holding onto a fish
    from the below
    dark abyss,
    black and cold
    When I relax it pushes me,
    buoyancy on the surface, I rest
    preparing for the test
    when I tense,
    it pulls me down into its foreboding
    nostalgic mourning
    I recall, hoping to be heard
    salt stinging my eyes
    shadows shifting in the depths
    I strain to see light, to be light
    holding on by letting go
    thoughts fading
    into a bottomless expanse
    thrilling and threatening
    I look up once more

    Body pushing in it
    Mind slightly above
    the shifting divide
    vague memories,
    swimming in the midst,
    a fine mist
    amniotic intimacy
    Sucking in water,
    Pushing out air



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    Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:41 am


    Once a year I clean
    from head to foot
    cock to spleen
    Garbage out the door
    making room for more

    Once a month I burn
    yearning in the lantern
    I learn to concern
    Filth out the cistern
    filling the cauldron

    Throwing up,
    casting down
    What use have I for
    your plastic crown
    dirty clown?

    Painted face
    missing grace
    lettering rearranged
    warrior tattoos deranged
    how strange

    Once a week I destroy
    foundation to spire
    I overturn the ploy
    with relentless joy
    I tend to con-spire

    Once a day I hurt
    friends and foes
    I deal out blows
    expecting a return
    I restlessly turn

    Bed sheets
    pillow cases
    colourful make-up
    rubbed-out
    leaving nasty traces

    I follow
    Into the hollow
    Echoes off cave walls
    university halls
    I listen to the calls

    Within me in-security
    bubbling forth and out
    overflowing drowning
    confident rising
    a ship of my esteem

    Running on steam
    through the gates of Hercules
    across the river Lethe
    to be with thee
    my one and only monstrosity


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    Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:42 am

    I, on the other hand
    who needs no external stimuli,
    no outside numbing
    to walk through a wood
    and feel the wonder

    Am not as obsessed to prove
    the wonder of my buzz
    happy enough to hear it
    in the rustling leaves
    and bubbling streams

    I, on the other hand,
    who needs no other to validate
    to witness and consolidate
    feeling a caress, smelling her sweat
    through her flowery dress

    Am not as addicted to profess
    the glory of her embrace
    only content to feel her
    and with my hungry mouth
    conceal her taste


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    I love the twilight, and the fleeting time before the dawn, hovering, there, nowhere, like a moment that never comes and never goes; like a passing touch, playing upon your skin a song, that never ends, because it has never begun; like death waiting, breathtaking, in erotic anticipation, to take you on.
    I hold my self.
    Suspended, still, listening for a climactic chime, that never comes, and by never coming, never ends.

    If I could, I would, live in the northern lands where the sun never rises, and never declines.
    Simply waiting there, on the horizon, blood red and tumescent with excited melancholy, like slightly parted lips, breathing in, and out, ready for the coming kiss that never comes, and by never coming never leaves.
    Not strange for a Mediterranean, by birth, to have such tastes for the meditating, mid states, separating the mundane from the sublime.

    I've always lived here, even beneath the brightest suns, hoping clouds will come to save me, and take me back to my comfortable dusk, where shadows bring out the subtlety of shapes, and their secreted delights.
    My home has always been in the in-between, the fracturing lines of space and time, where daylight comes to meet the night, and where in concealing all is revealing, the darkness in the light.


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    Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:43 am

    I am the sigil, and the mark is upon me
    I am alone, one in all, all in one
    I am for no-one, and no-one is for me
    I am cast in stone, forged in steel, covering weal

    I am the hungry reaper, and the need is me
    I am foregone, gone for, gone in four
    I be-long to no-one, and no one belongs to me
    I am made of glass, reflective fragile, translucent free

    I am miasma, and anathema is me
    I am the smell, the scent, the stagnate sea
    I flow to no-thing, and no-thing comes to me
    I am liquid fire, lava flow, demanding small fee

    I am that which was, is, and forever will be
    I watch the clock, castrate the cock, I mock
    I say and unsay, and then continue to repeat
    I am nowhere, at no time, shadow scree

    I am named, no-name, and the moniker is me
    I am sad, glad, awaiting to be had
    I speak the unspoken, revolt the revolting
    I am hidden in revelation, openly concealed, visibly unseen


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    Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:44 am

    What has befallen to make me so sullen, I cannot avert from mine eye.
    To be so parched and uncaring 'bout the taunts of the craven, finding their admiration just as dry.
    I sought, for a moment, relief in the rare and revealing, but found it to be just as well.
    As any amusement, and terror inducement, I settled upon every life that I fell.
    Farewell, childhood dreams, I finally found a way out.
    No longer bemused, or so easily seduced, I have found a new game for my toys, my easy joys; new pleasures in my old suffering annoys.


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    I gestured to the majestic light,
    A sign of victory and spite
    Forthcoming, I was
    Gentle as an evening breeze, after a long day of searing heat
    Casually I danced, and casually I sang, and sat by my own side
    Alone but not, yet, lonely,
    Settling, into my thoughts, like a bird upon its nest full of coming births
    If I weren't so heavy with scars,
    Well, I thought,
    I could dance upon the stars
    From where I fell and cracked but did not break,
    Perhaps, a beautiful mistake,
    And ever since, then, I limp,
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    I remember a stray cat I once befriended in Greece.
    I fed her, because she looked so thin.

    To my surprise, she came scratching at my bedroom door, daily, eventually ripping the screen.

    She became so trusting that I could pick her up by the head, and she would go limp, like a kitten when the mother carries them.

    When I left for the army, I was gone for a year, before my first long leave.
    I returned, not finding her.
    I thought she had died.
    That afternoon I took my father's vespa down to the town - he was in Canada at the time.
    I returned, later, and saw the cat running to the house. She had recognized the sound of the Vespa, which is distinct.
    Nobody had one in the neighbourhood.
    She was emaciated, but as affectionate as before.
    I realized she had given birth to kittens, and had hid them somewhere in the cactus bushes.
    I fed her well, and before I left I placed food at the door.
    Never saw that cat again.
    But I still recall her trusting purity, her affections.


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    Nothing like the first sip of hot coffee, early on a fall morning.

    Small pleasures, not to be made more than what they are - twinkles of a distant star.
    Let the dark grow thicker, for me to see it dance - light skirting earthly gases from afar.
    A messenger delivering a master's power.
    How I long to acquire
    A ship, with giant sails, and a hard rudder.
    Perhaps to Troy
    To do battle for another king's love
    Perhaps elsewhere
    Away from Ithaca shores

    Distance makes the heart grow fonder
    Closeness makes it grow cold
    Caverns to be crossed
    only by the bold

    Those who can tolerate an ocean
    of isolation
    resisting the pull of friendly shores
    or the warm water of the abyss
    that persists


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    Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:47 am

    Never had problems sleeping, unless something was troubling me.
    I've heard other complaining of sleep issues, insomnia, falling asleep after hours of tossing, and I can only empathize remembering my own, few times, of troubled sleeplessness.

    Never underestimate the value of a good night's rest, or a cat nap at noon.
    At my age, I don't.

    There was one memorable night's sleep, when I was but a boy.
    My parents had left me behind, in Greece, at my aunts house, and had departed for Canada.
    I joined them 6 months later.
    I was 8.

    My aunt's house was in a mountain village, called Geraki (Hawk).

    One night it was so hot she asked if I wanted to sleep on the roof.
    Her kids, my cousins, much younger on the veranda.
    I said, yes.
    She laid down some blankets, sheets and a pillow.
    I remember the night was so clear, up there, that the Milky Way was the brightest I had ever seen
    The roof so high that there was nothing in my peripheral vision. No trees, no buildings, no town lights.
    Nothing but stars surrounding me.
    It felt like I was floating in space.
    Roof cement fell away, as Hypnos came slowly to claim me floating in the heavens.


    Sweetest night I ever experienced.


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    Post by Satyr on Fri Jun 01, 2018 8:49 am

    In all my wanderings, past and present, not once did I hear a bird sing and think it was singing for me.
    Not once did I think I had solved a riddle, or that I was someone's one and only.
    Not once have I considered myself indispensable, a leader, a guru, a teacher.

    I simply show, and ask
    "Do you not see?"

    I guess I've never been so vain, though I am egotistical as can be.
    The opposite, in fact.
    Whenever I'm flattered I feel embarrassment, speculating on the motives.
    When I am shown appreciation, I blush.
    Imitation is the highest form of flattery - actions speaking louder than words.
    Mind can lie, but not the body.
    Body judges, on the sands of time it draws its appreciations - salivating, moistening, hardening, dilating, contracting, with a mind of its own - a reptilian automatism, the cortex must justify.


    Empathy.
    Can't watch a shameful act performed shamelessly without cringing, feeling ashamed for the one who feels it not - embarrassed on his behalf.


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